Wednesday, May 14, 2008

All liquids -- here I come...


I have had a pretty stressful couple of weeks. I had THE BEST time in NYC, and I am going to be posting an entry all about that verrry soon. After returning from NYC, it seems to be one thing after another just falling apart with my health again...

It's not easy to stay positive, when it feels as though any progress that is being made is so short-lived. I feel like my days are spend chasing after health so much that the more I chase after it, the more elusive it becomes and I lose sight of so much else. Is it possible to be trying TOO hard to get better? I work so hard at it, everyday. Sometimes I feel like I am running in circles. One thing improves - and another worsens. I put something back together, and then it breaks all over again.

I feel like I am at a turning point in my life. It's time to really take control of my health and my life and to focus on being the source of healing for myself. Every doctor that I have ever been to, all helped me in their own way. But I feel that I am at a stage in my life, where I no longer need five different doctors telling me fifty different things to do. I am going to be my own healer. I am going to heal myself. I feel that there is a big shift coming in my life -- I feel almost a pull towards giving my digestion a break from solid foods. Sticking to liquids (juices, blended smoothies and soups). My body seems to be reacting very negatively to solid foods lately, even though I have been eating 100% raw. (I stopped eating my baked sweet potatoes around three weeks ago). Yesterday I had my daily morning fresh veggie juice and felt freat. Then the afternoon came and hunger set in -- so I made myself a big, raw salad -- about 15 mins later, I felt so bloated and just very uncomfortable. When I consume green smoothies and fresh veggie juices, I feel so pure and light. No bloating, no feeling of "over-indulgence" - I just feel full of chlorophyll and goodness!

My biggest obstacle is getting past the urge to CHEW and to eat something SOLID. As much as I make excuses for eating solid food instead of doing blended foods, because it "fills me more", the truth is that I actually feel more satiated when I'm not eating so much - yet, I can't seem to get past that desire to eat and chew. I think it really comes down to MIND OVER MATTER. I need to get more in touch with the emotional connection that I have to food. My body obviously feels better when I am giving my digestion a break - yet my mind keeps fighting it, and that is something that I am going to have to take control of.

By the way, I really want to thank EVERYONE who commented on my last entry regarding my struggle with reflux. I have started to take HCL capsules with each meal and have noticed a BIG difference. I've also been trying a few other things as well, I will talk more about that in an upcoming post because I think I'm on to something...

Thursday, May 1, 2008

TRYING TO FIND MY WAY TOWARDS A HEARTBURN-FREE LIFE

I have literally been researching everyday, trying to find out more information about natural cures for GERD and low-stomach acid. I am determined to heal myself of the evil nastiness that is heartburn. I have suffered from chronic indigestion and reflux since I was nine years old. After having an endoscope, my doctor at the time found that I had GERD and a Hiatal Hernia. He immediately (without talking about the possibility of any alternatives) put me on a PPI drug (Proton-pump inhibitor) called Aciphex. I was on Aciphex for 14 years. I just recently stopped taking it, and I have been struggling with my heartburn everyday since. I try everything natural that I can possibly find but I have a hard time making it through the night without taking a Zantac or Tums.


After years of thinking that my stomach produced TOO much acid, it turns out that I actually suffer from LOW STOMACH ACID. So, as I sit here typing this, my indigestion is burning away at my chest -- I am drinking Ginger tea and trying to take deep breaths. I have dealt with this since I was a little girl and I am determined to get this under control. I know that the Aciphex is what contributed to so many of my health issues (bad digestion, food allergies, Candida, bacteria overgrowth, malabsorption, vitamin and mineral deficincies, low stomach acid, etc). I was told my whole life that there was no danger of being on an acid-blocking medication for your entire life. Well, after doing much research and talking to many health professionals, it turns out that the medication I was on, was originally made for people to stay on no longer than 6 MONTHS… I was on it for 14 YEARS. This is just yet another example of medical doctors pointing you in the direction of DRUGS and telling you that everything will be fine and that there are no complications. Well, that’s just not true. I truly believe that because of shutting off my stomachs acid for that many years, that is why I’ve had so many health issues. It’s a shame, because I can’t get all of those years back but I can make a change and I WILL sort this out. I eat so wonderfully and I do everything that I can and the heartburn is still there….. I just have to figure out a way to heal my stomach lining and to help my stomach produce it’s own acid.


I’ll get there……

Sunday, April 27, 2008


I ordered a bottle of Oxy-Powder, after hearing Linda rave about it so much on her blog. I went to the website and read all about it, and it seems very good. I've decided to try the 7-day cleanse protocol that they tell about on their website. I'm a bit nervous, because in the past, I haven't been able to tolerate many natural "laxatives" or whatever you'd like to call them. I used to have bad reactions from everything I tried. The only things I stick with now are Triphala, Aloe Vera(this stuff is awesome!), and Magnesium Citrate. All of those things are wonderful but I feel like I really need to CLEANSE and so I'm going to give Oxy-Powder a try. Probably not until next week, seeing as I am leaving for NYC on Friday and do not want to be on the cleanse while I'm out and about! Probably not the smartest thing to do.


I have also gotten in touch with a local Colon Hydrotherapist who specializes in the gravitational method. She actually worked at the Ann Wigmore Foundation as well, which is really awesome. I have yet to meet her, so I decided to set up an appointment where we can talk first and I can give her a brief overview of my health and history and decide where to go from there. I don't want to just go right in and have a colonic before talking to her about my medical issues before hand. I've given colonics ALOT of thought, especially of course because as everyone probably knows already, The Raw Food Detox Diet is pretty much by daily bible and I swear by most everything that Natalia Rose says and she is a big fan of colonics. She talks a lot about it in her books and gives great detail. When I met with her for my consult she mentioned colonics to me and told me about Gil Jacobs who is pretty much the best colon hydrotherapist out there and from what I hear, an amazing and insightful person as well. He is in NYC and books up pretty fast, I'd still love love to get in to see him as well, however I know that it would be much more convenient to have a colon therapist in my area, one that I feel comfortable with and do not have to travel far to get to. I definitely plan on setting up an appointment with Gil at some point though and see how that goes.



As far as being nervous goes with getting a colonic, it's not so much nerves as it is... fear. I'm fearful of the pain that could possibly come from the colonic. I know that majority of people who have had colonics, say that there is minimal discomfort, however, I am known for having an incredibly sensitive colon and the littlest things can cause pain and discomfort for me. For instance, if I miscombine ONE meal, I bloat almost immediately. I have tried one enema in my life, and literally put it in for not even a minute without it causing horrible spasms in my intestines. I was on the toilet all night in horrible pain... now to this day I do not know if that was caused by the chemicals in the enema or not, I did use a fleet enema and didn't empty the contents out, so it is possible that my reaction was due to the chemicals and not the actual enema. I also had a BAD experience after having a colonoscopy, I ended up having to stay the whole night in the hospital, on pain medications because I was in so much pain. I have very low tolerance when it comes to my stomach, colon, intestines, the whole shebang. So, naturally I'd be a bit fearful of a COLONIC. I just pray that I have good results and honestly, it may sound strange but I feel in a way that the universe it pointing me in the direction of colonics. Almost as if it is the next step for me, to reaching the maximum results.


I also am wondering if it isn't possible that I could have some Autointoxication going on. I was reading the brochure for my colon hydrotherapist and some of the main symptoms for chronic autointoxication are what I am struggling with everyday. Things like Insomnia/Fatigue, Low-energy, Candida, Depression/Anxiety, Irritability, Food Allergies, Weight gain, Constipation, Headaches, Cellulite, Menstrual problems, Bloating and Indigestion. Honestly, I am like the candidate for an overly toxic person. Not to mention that I am suppose to be going through a Chelation protocol to rid myself of some heavy metals but have had to put a hold on that right now because my body is just not able to detox anything. I don't know what is going on with my body but all of my tests are showing that my body is having a hard time assimilating and digesting anything. I have low low stomach acid and it seems that no matter what I do, unless I completely stop eating food, I am fighting with indigestion constantly. I'm lacking amino acids and most of the vital vitamins and nutrients that we all need in order to function. My thyroid is completely out of wack, I'm yet again Anemic and I have to get tested for Insulin resistance next week. I'm still on Prozac and although it's helping me immensely, I still hope to switch over to something natural later on when things calm down in my body and my life.


I am 23 years old and have been fighting with my health issues since I turned 16. I feel sometimes like I am living in a 60 year olds body. Sometimes I feel incredibly overwhelmed with frustration and anger. I drive myself crazy with wondering "why" all of the time. But the truth is that no matter what has happened in my life, THIS is my life and no matter how depressed or distressed or depleted (wow enough with the d words) I feel -- I know in my heart that it is all for a reason. I know that I am going to be able to help many other people in my life and truly heal myself from many of the ailments that have held me back and hurt me for so long.
The trick is to turn your pain into knowledge and help and continue to educate yourself and others..... oh, and to never give up, of course :)
"Sometimes things will fall apart in order for other things to fall into place."



I promised I would answer some of the questions that you have asked me! so here we go....

from Charissa
Question: What spiral slicer or "noodle" maker do you use? I'm trying to find a good one that will last me years and years. I hear a lot of good stuff about some and a lot of bad stuff about others. Thanx. XOXO


Heeeey hun, this is the one that I use and I LOVE it!


from RawVibrance
Question: Where where do you get white Japanese yams? Whole Foods?


Usually Whole Foods or my local co-op market, I can't seem to find them at many places though! If you do find them, GET THEM! they are by far the best. It's hard for me to go back to regular yams because these are the yummiest of all!


From veg_n
Question: How exactly do you make your green juice? Do you juice all of your greens, or blend them, or both? And, how much kale and romaine would you say you use for each smoothie? They sound so delicious, I would love to know how to make them!


Well for the Green “juice” I use my Juicer. When I make green “smoothies” I use the vitamix. As far as the amount goes of greens, it depends on which you are going to make. You will need much less produce for smoothies, so it can be a lot easier in that sense… it really depends on what you want for your body. When you blend your greens, you are keeping the fiber intact, which is great but if you want to give your digestion a break, that’s where juicing comes in. But to give you a rough estimate, for green smoothies I usually do 1-2 handfuls of kale and a bunch of romaine. For juice, I use usually triple the amount of kale and same with the romaine. Try it out and see what you like, everyones taste for greens is varied!


From anonymous
Question: how many green apples, grapefruit, and berries are you allowed to consume? when can you incorporate these into your diet? i am also on an anti-candida diet and gained weight because i eat jars of nut butter. i am a loser.
also are you doing the anti-fungals again?


As far as green apples, grapefruit and berries are concerned, they are definitely the best to go for if you are struggling with candida, in the beginning though, it’s really best to avoid all of them if you can. I personally haven’t had any since starting the plan but I plan to add in a cup of berries and an apple at some point and see how I tolerate it. You are not a loser for eating jars of nut butter! You should see how I used to eat dates! I could literally consume an entire container and still want more. We all have our weaknesses, but they do not make us weak…. We just have to learn how to control ourselves and get to the point where we can have these things, just not entire jars and containers!! Lol Antifungals… I take Candex every morning and night. I also have taken Fungal Defense by Garden of Life and highly recommend both! Oregano Oil is great, too...



I have also been recieving many emails and questions regarding the plan I am following from Natalia Rose and how my "no-fruit" has been going. I have been off of fruit now (with the exception of lemons, limes and frozen acai for my smoothies) for 27 days and the first two weeks were horrible for me. I never went a day without an apple! It was brutal to give up my most favorite food in the world but honestly, I find myself not even craving fruit anymore. I'm really loving my lemons, stevia, young coconuts, and avocado in my smoothie and I don't even need the other fruits to balance it out. Also frozen unsweetened Acai berry is amazing! you can find it in the freezer at most health food stores. It's very low in sugar and doesn't seem to spike me at all or cause any bloating or problems. One big thing I have noticed since eating this way is that my stomach is not able to hold as much food anymore. I get full waaaay faster than usual and some nights I am done eating after 3pm. Although Natalia advises to eat later in the day, I find that sometimes my digestion works better when I have a Green Juice or Smoothie for breakfast and a big lunch and then stop for the rest of the night. It helps my bloating and indigestion alot as well. A big part has to do with what time I go to bed as well. For instance if I know that I am going to be getting into bed earlier than usual, then I will make it a point to stop eating earlier in the day... and the same goes for the opposite. Going to sleep later, then I can eat alittle bit later. It all depends. I happen to have a very slow digestion and I like to give myself atleast 4 hours to stop eating before I go to sleep. It all depends on YOUR body though, so you have to make your own adjustments. As far as cravings go, I'm doing really well, haven't been craving much other than what I am able to eat. I've been going hogwild on sea veggies lately though, I can't seem to get enough of them! It's probably my thyroid speaking to me. I know that sea veggies can be amazing for stoking a sluggish thyroid, so that's good news!!
All in all, I am determined to stick to this plan because to me it makes the most sense and I believe it in completely. The scale hasn't budged yet and I'm trying not to get discouraged because I know there are alot of other things going on in my body right now, which is why I need to focus more on getting my Thyroid and other issues figured out so that I can start to release some weight and feel better. I think the colonic will come in helpful with the weight loss as well. I'm trying not to focus on "losing weight" anymore as much as I am trying to focus on HEALTH. Feeling good comes first and the rest will follow.....


Thursday, April 24, 2008

RAW CHOCOLATE RAVE

If anyone can make it to this event, next Friday, it's definitely going to be something to remember! We are going to rawk it out and dance til we drop! We'll be having lots of chocolate highs without any hangovers the next day!

GO HERE TO BUY YOUR TICKETS AND TO LEARN MORE INFO

Also, I want to mention that Vanessa(Chocolate Girl) and I wanted to get a group together before the event (which starts at around 8pm) and which will be held at the Chapel of Sacred Mirrors. The art gallery closes at 6 pm, so a group of us would have to meet there ahead of time so that we can experience this unbelievable art. Email me if you are interested in getting together before hand, what a great way to start off the evening!

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Sea Veggie Pasta



I've been craving the texture of pasta lately and although it's been 5 years since I have had actual pasta, I still get that urge every now and then for the taste of it. So I indulged but without any guilt or discomfort!! I swear this tasted so much like the real thing.


I used...


Kombu Seaweed and spiralized Zucchini for the "Pasta Noodles"


Seeds Of Change Marinara Sauce for the "Spaghetti Sauce"


Portobella Mushrooms marinated in Basil, Oregano and Cumin for the "Meatballs"


Baked white Japenese Yam with Garlic flakes, a bit of olive oil and salt for the "Garlic Bread"



Natalia Rose recommended that I try Kelp noodles because they come all prepared! It would be nice to just open the bag and have them all ready to eat. Anything that gives me a break from soaking, rinsing, drying and chopping is always appreciated!!!